Double Chins and Naughty Bits

When I was a teenager I had a friend who was 200 lbs., she thought she was a blimp so she went on an insane diet of laxatives and ice cream. She lost 100 lbs. in a matter of months. She thought she was going to be so sexy until all the skin started hanging loose. Her complaints went from, "I'm so fat nobody loves me to my vagina is still fat, nobody is gonna have sex with a fat vag." The life of a plus sized teenager isn't much different from an adult. I don't know whatever happened to her because she turned into the conceited monster bitch most formally fat chicks turn into because they think they are hot stuff (That's a problem for another blogging day). Let's move on to double chins and over sized vaginas. This can be an uncomfortable topic, some people can't even say or read the word vagina without dread but it is a part of this surgery and lifestyle so you have to get used to all your fatty parts and figure out how to tackle them.

Her worries about loose skin and a fat vagina were totally valid. Before my surgery, while many in fatty group were worried about sagging breasts (even the men), my two main concerns were  my chin and my vagina. I knew I had two fat body parts exercise couldn't help and I was so worried that I would lose all this weight and have my double chins flopping away and have to hold up my formerly fat vagina in some Spanx forever. Long before surgery, when I realized how fat I had become was the day I had to wear long shirts because I could see IT bulging below my tire like it's own little tire. I can tell you this without providing too much information, both are fine. The chin went away on it's own and the lady parts seem to have gone with it. My major concern right now in the flapping department are my upper arms and thighs. This is going to be a tough long haul in tightening and toning because I really don't want to have any tucking surgeries.

I want to know what some of your concerns are with sagging after surgery, even the ones you are too shy to ask the doctor about. All sagging concerns are valid and it would be great to hear from some people on how they toned different body parts. Feel free to leave a comment, no need to sign up for blogger. I do monitor for spam comments so keep your viagra and work from home survey spam to yourself.

In the Fatty Closet

Hiding in my closet behind size 20 pants and 3x tops is me. I look like a child trying on her mother’s clothes; except I’m an adult and those over sized clothes are mine. Everything is too big and I’m too broke to buy anything new especially with the knowledge that those clothes will also be too big sooner than later. People keep asking me how I did it and I tell them I have started to eat right and I started playing those Just Dance games. Though, it is true that for some eating right and getting off their fat asses and sweating will work, it didn’t for me and I am still ashamed by the stigma of fatty surgery. I don’t want anyone to downplay my victory and the way I feel about my weight loss because I had the surgery. I’m not ready to come out of the fatty closet. In a way I am disappointed, I owned my fat but why can’t I own this? Someday I suppose.  

A minor medical update: After months of no follow ups due to the hurricane I finally got to see a doctor who told me to continue on the track I am on. Since the day of my surgery in September and my appointment this past January I have lost 55lbs.  In total, since August (including the liquid diet) I have lost 71lbs. I have no stats as far as how my vitamin levels are, they took my blood but haven’t scheduled me for another appointment until April, so if I die, we know why. Thing are normal, my hair is falling out and I’m trying as hard as I can to keep up with the sagging skin on my thighs. I have also developed this constant concern every time I eat that I am eating too much even though I’m having a cup of food or less per meal, I’m sure most people go through this. I’m just afraid of having gone through all this pain for nothing.

With this brief update I will leave you to go back in my closet. Maybe I will find something in a size 12 or 14 (from my “skinny” days) back there. If anyone feels like leaving some feedback I would like to hear if you are in or out of the closet and the reception you have received.